Saturday, April 11, 2015

this sweater


This sweater is a metaphor for my life right now.

It was supposed to be a Christmas sweater for my baby girl, which then turned into a potential St. Valentine's Day sweater, which ultimately became a "please still fit and good thing Spring is pretty chilly here" sweater. It's still not really finished, but I'm calling it done. Like so many things in my life at this moment, I'm learning to accept good enough when I see it.

This sweater is filled with little mistakes (I actually tried to remember the mistakes I made while knitting the first arm so that I could duplicate them in the second. Ha!). Little mistakes, but good lessons.

I have this irrational fear that while out and about, someone (some mythical one) will be appalled at the incomplete collar and the fact that one sleeve is a half inch longer than the other, and will admonish me to please not dress my sweet baby in such a way. This is the same mythical someone, by the way, whom I also fear will show up on my doorstep with a shaking-of-the-head "tsk, tsk, tsk" at the current state of my house.      

This sweater took such a long time to complete, with unanticipated hurdles and frustrations and even thoughts of abandonment altogether. And really, it looks nothing like the pattern said it would. But, in the end, it really is still beautiful. Beautiful, messy, honest, unfinished...Like life - yes.
   

12 comments:

  1. I challenged myself to a triangular lace shawl. I needed glasses to be able to follow the diagram. Like you, I know the mistakes. My husband said to me, "I doubt that the three people in the state of Connecticut who would be ABLE to see the mistakes will ever be at the same party." You have little people of all stages in your life. I am proud of you for still being able to knit! As for your house, you have to decide where your energy should be spent: Mothering or Cleaning. There is only so much of you to go around. As we have hour children, we must remember that we, too, evolve.
    There will come a day when you have time to do it. There will come a day when your lonely house is so empty because your precious children are grown and gone. They will not remember a clean house, they will remember a loving home.

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  2. Jaime, you are in the thick of motherhood which is consumed by every waking (and sometimes sleeping) moment! These are the "trench years" where you are totally submerged in this role... time for anything other than mothering is scarce and it is a HUGE and COLOSSAL thing that you FINISHED the sweater! 3 cheers for you XOXOX I'm not certain that I finished ANYTHING for something like 10 years...



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  3. When I had a houseful of boys, I abandoned knitting, except for an occasional pair of mittens. Just too time consuming. Your sweater is beautiful and your desire to lovingly create something for your child certainly overrides any little mistakes that you may have made.

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  4. Knitting is such a great metaphor for life, isn't it? I haven't been able to knit for the past six months or so because of wrist issues, but this gorgeous sweater (and it IS gorgeous) and you telling about it lift my spirits and describe perfectly how it feels to create - especially in the knitting world. :)

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  5. I love the color! And I love that you pressed on and finished it in spite of mistakes. I wouldn't have noticed that, just that's it's a beautiful sweater for a beautiful little girl.

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  6. It's so pretty! I like to think that the mistakes in a handknitted garment are like little signatures. I am all for imperfection!

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  7. I admire your perseverance. I bet your baby looks cuter than a bug's ear in such a perfectly imperfect homemade creation. I mean, really, if you want to start having mythical judgy people where are they for the folks dressing their sweet babies in "sweatshop" clothes from Wal-Mart? This is so much better. Sleeves and mistakes and all. Happy Spring. I'm glad those Rocky Mountain springs have helped her get some use out of it yet.

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  8. You sound very much like me!
    And this sweater is perfect- and beautiful. :)

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  9. You sound very much like me!
    And this sweater is perfect- and beautiful. :)

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  10. It looks lovely! The color is beautiful!

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  11. You knit beautifully! I have a flawed little red sweater too, but the memories are still just as precious!

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